Faith will get us far in life. It is the belief that when life hands you lemons, you will have a pitcher, sugar and vodka in the house to make some lemon-aid. I wonder if I will ever truly have faith in my self. I express doubt that can start or finish. I internalize doubt that I can help or hope. I feel doubt that I can or will. Yet every day of my life when someone asks me a question, words pour out of my mouth like natures waterfalls. They seem clear, calm and cool. Yea, I can perform. I do tricks like the trained monkey I am. I can stand and sit, spin and sing. Sometimes I listen to my self and laugh. Where do I come up with this crap? Sometimes it is complete and total crap. I shock my self-thinking, "Did I just make that up or do I really believe that?” It is amusing. So maybe my faith in myself is the belief that I can run on autopilot. I can do it all automatically. But just incase something goes wrong; I will always have a parachute so I can jump for it.
